Culpability

When we finally take responsibility of our own actions, maybe it is then we can forgive and be forgiven, then maybe we have the right to ask others for the same.
I always tried so hard to forgive them, yet I just couldn't get past it, now I have received the blessing of sorrys' and somehow I realized that I should have been the one asking for forgiveness not trying to find it for them, although it was for me.

It's funny that life's lessons are interpreted so differently, by our minds, by our hearts. Why couldn't I see what is so BLATANTLY apparent now. I always thought I was smart, or somewhat intelligent I'm no Stephen Hawking but I do have my moments of brilliance. How could I not see that what I most needed to do what was what I most needed to have? UUUUUGGGGHHHHH (Charlie Brown style).

It's amazing I made it thus far, Life certainly is sneaky, or maybe I was just in a different temporal zone. Looking through a magnifying glass when I should have been using a microscope.
Ahhh, it's never too late though, one can always change the present, hopefully writing a different future, although never the past (unfortunately) except in a new light and with a different lens.

Here's to enlightened spirits.

Maybe losing Vengence and Anger will make me lose weight too or is that being greedy???

Namaste

Pride

A sense of one's own proper dignity or value; self-respect.
Pleasure or satisfaction taken in an achievement, possession, or association: parental pride.
Arrogant or disdainful conduct or treatment; haughtiness.

A cause or source of pleasure or satisfaction; the best of a group or class: These soldiers were their country's pride.
The most successful or thriving condition; prime: the pride of youth.
An excessively high opinion of oneself; conceit.
Mettle or spirit in horses.
A company of lions. See synonyms at flock1.
A flamboyant or impressive group: a pride of acrobats.
tr.v., prid·ed, prid·ing, prides.
To indulge (oneself) in a feeling of pleasure or satisfaction: I pride myself on this beautiful garden.

[Middle English, from Old English pr[ymacr]de, from prūd, proud. See proud.]

When is it too much, and when is it not enough?
Where is the line drawn? Who moves it?
Do we have to express it?
If we don't, we become the doormat.
We have to swing the pendulum to gain a balance.
We must then become the opposite of what we were, or were we already there?????
Perhaps it is then we digress...

Thoughts to sleep on.

Learning

Life is funny, just when you think you have mastered your emotions, your weaknesses, your strengths the universe hits you upside the head and kix your butt into some new dimension you've never known existed. Well, pleasant surprises and scary revelations. What to do with all that you thought you had dealt with...

Here's to yet another beginning on this journey in my life.

Paybacks

When you wait long enough they happen all by themselves. I love Kharma!

Please get educated...

Help, Hope, Healing from the Inside Out
By Linda LaFever

My Sister....My Friend,
No one understands or has the capacity to feel and share your pain as
another mother - another who has experienced the grief, guilt, and shame
of giving birth to a child disabled by her own use of alcohol during
pregnancy.

We have been and will continue to be called negligent, cruel,
irrespon-sible, heartless, and on occasion, even evil. We will be
unjustly judged by our ethnicity or by our lifestyles. Some of us, less
visible because of our social standing, educational achievements or bank
account balances will be accorded "philosophical grace." Some of us
have support from our extended family members; some of us are the only
ones that "know" why our children are not like all the others.

Nonetheless, each of us bears our own burden - publicly or privately -
known to all, or unknown by anyone except ourselves. It doesn't matter
whether we drank alcohol addictively, abusively or casually, with or
without the knowledge of potential consequences, with or without the
advice of our doctors, with or without our partners. We, you and I, and
multitudes of other mothers throughout the ages have given birth to
children with diminished potentials. It's a fact. And we grieve.

Recovery from grief comes in three stages. First there is the all
consuming agony that hurts minute by minute. Then comes anger. At
ourselves, at our situation and at the helplessness we feel. Next comes
the realization that we cannot walk this path alone. It is the support
and encouragement of others that turns anger into energy to care for our
children.
We, all of us Sisters, expend far too much useless energy wallowing
about in the swamps of our shame. Better we hold our heads up high,
support each other and climb out of the depths of our grief to rebuild
our dreams.

The first step we can take for ourselves and for our children is to
enter into the ongoing process of recovery from our problems with
alcohol. An important part of this process is to clothe ourselves in
the power of these words:
"God, grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I CANNOT CHANGE; the
COURAGE to change the things I CAN, and the WISDOM to know the
DIFFERENCE."

Remember, my Sister, no matter what we do, how many tears we cry, how
much self-incrimination we indulge ourselves in, we cannot make our
children healthy and whole. Ever. It's a done deal. We must move on.
We can wear sackcloth and ashes, pray all day long, whip ourselves to
welts with switches and still our child will be the same. All that we
accomplish is wearing down our spirit and rendering ourselves incapable
of being advocates for our children. Remember, we can't ever make it
right but . . .we can make it better.
When do we stop dragging the grief around like the proverbial millstone
hanging about our necks? NOW, we stop. RIGHT NOW! Our children need us
to be strong, informed, confident, and assertive.

My Friend, we and our children have a long and difficult road ahead of
us. The sooner we acknowledge the obstacles that lie before us, the
better prepared we will be to challenge them.

"After a while you learn that love doesn't mean leaning, that kisses
aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. And you begin to accept
defeats with your head up and your eyes wide open . . . with the grace
of a woman, not the grief of a child. So you plant your own garden and
decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you
flowers. Remembering always that even sunshine hurts if you get too
much. And you learn that you can endure. . . that you are strong and
you really do have worth and, that with every dawn comes a new day."
Author Unknown

My Sister, my Friend, you and I and our children have some very tall
mountains to climb. The peaks are high; the valleys are low, but we do
not climb the mountains alone. I care for you, so you are not alone.
Neither am I because we have each other now.

(A brochure forbirth parents by Linda LaFever is available. See
publications page.) http://www.fasdconnections.ca/id35.htm

Reprinted from FAS Times, Winter 95

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Life & Light

You know how they say, what goes around doth come around!
And you know I've been around the world and I yay ya...
LIFE ROX!!!!
Farmer's fair today, splint and all we had a blast, still workin on the EI pkg for schoolin. Got a haircut today, kroke with the wonderous one Fernando (WHO ELSE????) last night, went with Rob, holy long time no see, Lindsay has all the support she needs as do I! Just happy that all is finally going well!

Love & Laughter
Always & Forever!
Jewelz
Sparkling Enlightenment

Soul Mates

Soul Mates & Twin Flames

In gratitude ♥Tina Marie ♥
Date: Sep 13, 2007 6:13 PM

Blessings and Thanks to:
Maria Mango
Angel Love



Soul Mates are souls we have met and lived with in many life times.
They have been our lovers, spouses, mothers, fathers,
sisters, brothers, teachers, students, friends, and family,
or even our enemies, victims, or tormenters.
We contract with these souls to return to earth together
for greater learning and growth.




We have many soul mates, the first larger splitting of souls. These souls resonate with us and there is a comfort in that recognition. We evolve and reincarnate with these souls through many lifetimes, learning lessons in our many unions and partings, you can say on some level we are all soul mates one with another, learning and growing together. Not all these lessons are loving or comforting as lessons in forgiveness and unconditional love are challenging. Sometimes we are the "victim", and sometimes we are the "darkness" that shows another soul their light. This is where freewill and choice comes into the "game", how we react or perceive our relationships. Someone can come into your life and cause you much pain and suffering, this is a soul contract between you to grow and evolve in love and forgiveness. This is one perception of karma, and one that will free you from the karmic cycle of "I kill you, now you kill me" type of karmic dance some souls are involved in for many lifetimes. You break the cycle by acting rather than reacting, by freeing the ego from the soul and learning to love and forgive even in suffering.

Our greatest joy and our greatest pain are both conceived in these soul mate relationships, our feelings intensified by our soul connections, whether for good or bad. You can often spot a soul mate or karmic relationship by "love at first site" or "revulsion at first site", depending upon the lessons you've contracted to learn from this soul.






Becoming "Whole" Before "Two" Becomes "One"

It is said that one does not meet their Twin Soul or Twin Flame until they have learned many lessons of love, loss and forgiveness through close Soul Mate relationships, that the heart is made resilient and strong through pain and loss, and must be so to face the intensity of being with the other half of their soul.
Twin souls, also called Twin Flames or Twin Rays, are the other half of your soul. This is based on the belief that we are all parts of the Divine Being, God, All That Is, Source, Spirit, Creator. The Divine Being, in order to experience Its Self, divided into many souls, each in turn divided into many others and many others. The final splitting of the many neutrally gendered souls created male and female halves of a whole, the Twin Soul.

Many people who have met their Twin Soul had experienced a "Dark Night of the Soul", or a major spiritual transformation just prior to meeting, or upon meeting this soul. It's almost as if you need to be "emptied out" emotionally, spiritually and mentally as a test of your spirit. Meeting your "other half" can be a magical, maddening experience that opens your perceptions. Some experience an opening of their psychic awareness as their heart expands in this unbounded and unconditional love. The fact is, your life will not be the same, and whether you perceive this as a gift or a curse is the challenge of your soul's evolution. The Twin Soul connection is always a triad involving the Divine Spirit/All That Is, two people connected by soul, connected to God.

Before one can physically unite with their Twin Soul, one must do the conscious work of healing and becoming whole within their self. Twin Soul love cannot exist in a codependent, ego-based relationship, or from a perceived "need" that the other person will make you whole. Both must often face separations while they strengthen their own connection to Spirit and find their strength and purpose on their own.

Each half will find balance in their male/female, yin/yang before union. When both halves of the Soul become strong pillars on their own, have healed and resolved karmic ties in the present life, then they can unite to fulfill their Divine purpose, but the challenges do not end. There is an intensity that can be frightening when dealing with your mirror, your weaknesses and strengths magnified, unresolved issues and wounds painfully open to push you to further healing, or cause ego to run from the relationship in fear. It's important for Twin Souls to find their greater purpose, whether it's a task they will accomplish together, or alone, there will be work to be done.

Some Twin Souls do not unite physically here on Earth, and the relationship may last a lifetime on the spiritual level alone, while one or both may be living physically with another soul in karmic agreement. Some Twin Souls other halves are not even on the Earth plane at the same time and will offer guidance and comfort from beyond as a "guardian angel".






Psychic Connections and Synchronicity

Psychic and spiritual connection with your twin soul is intense and profound. Many experience a feeling of connection in a matrix of golden white threads of light, whether consciously or in a dream state. Some have strong psychic connection with their twin, feeling their thoughts embrace them mutually in an ecstatic place of comfort and bliss. You may feel your twin's pain and suffering in heart-wrenching anguish. Often physical symptoms are shared between twins, simultaneous nosebleeds, headaches, body aches are confirmed by both twins.

synchronicity: the coincidental occurrence of events and especially psychic events (as similar thoughts in widely separated persons or a mental image of an unexpected event before it happens) that seem related but are not explained by conventional mechanisms of causality; used especially in the psychology of C. G. Jung
Synchronicity plays an important part in twin soul meetings... I like to say that synchronicity is God's way of getting your attention. You may find similar experiences in the same time frames before you even met, marriages, births, divorces, illnesses. You may find that you had lived as neighbors in totally different towns at some point in your lifes or vacationed in the same country at the same time.






11:11 and Twin Souls

One of the most intriguing messages of synchronicity has to do with the numbers 11:11, you may find those numbers jumping out at you from digital clocks, restaurant receipts, license plates, phone numbers and such.

"The appearance of 11:11 is an always beneficial act of Divine Intervention. It tells you that it is time to take a good look around you and see what is real and what is illusory. It's time to pierce the veils of illusion which keep us bound to an unreal world. You have been chosen, because you are ready, to step into a Greater Reality. To lead the way for others into a new way of living, into a Greater Love. To ascend from duality into Oneness. The 11:11 is the bridge between duality and Oneness. It is our pathway into the Unknown. " from Solara & the 11:11
In numerology, the numbers 11 and 22 are master numbers, numbers that have their own unique meanings before being broken down into 2 and 4 respectively. In numerology the number 11 is often considered the number of the "spiritual messenger", a number of spiritual illumination signifying a channel for the information between the "higher" and "lower", a connection between conscious and unconscious, heaven and earth, yin and yang, male and female. Two "ones" joined, that make the pillars to the heavenly gate. The vibration and message of "two into one" and "ones' into two", the power of "one" twice amplified ... this is a perfect symbol of the twin soul.

Many twin flames have experienced this phenomena of 11's in birthdates, numerology, dates of meeting and such, and constantly receive the same 11:11 messages. I believe it can only be a symbol of the greater work that twin souls have been united on this earth to do.






How Do You Know if You've Met Your Twin?

Meeting the "other half of your soul" is generally so life changing and profound that this question is unnecessary.... you just know. Twin souls will both recognize this extraordinary bond, whether they are evolved and whole enough to acknowledge and act upon it is another thing. Meeting with your twin soul brings about an internal spiritual revolution, a deeper connection and understanding of the Divine and the Universal Oneness, this is the greatest gift of knowing your twin. Twin soul love is not to be confused with an obsessive/compulsive disorder, it's not a desire to "possess" another, but truly a challenge to love unconditionally and without expectation, to be whole and complete within yourself before joining with the other whole and complete side of your soul. The longing and desire to be with your twin soul is intense, but through growth and perception can be seen as the greater longing to join with the Divine, and that is the true lesson, you are two halves of a much greater whole.

When you meet your twin, there will be no "game-playing" or manipulation, you will have the need to be transparently honest in your relationship and communication with one another. If there is karma from past lives to work out between you, it will be apparent and consciously worked out. If you or your twin is committed to another relationship, you will respect and honor that bond and realize the tests of unconditional love. Meeting your twin soul challenges you to grow spiritually, heal mentally, emotionally, physically, and to see beyond time, ego, and physical limitations. You will be driven with the desire to be the best manifestation of your soul on earth. This is not a relationship of hearts and flowers, but one that will be tested in fire and will endure beyond time and space.

I need to caution that all of these signs are not "proof" of meeting the other half of your soul, very often we are challenged by the meeting of a "near twin" or karmic soul mate that can mirror all these signs. In my own experience, the man I believed with my entire being of being my twin flame, turned out to be a karmic soul mate, and one of the most painful lessons of my life. Thus, this article has been rewritten eliminating some of the original text. After these few years of reflection, I've come to see that there are no guarantees in life, in all our lessons we are called to learn unconditional love, compassion and forgiveness, a meeting with a karmic soul mate can be the ultimate test of your spiritual evolution. Many people have written me, asking me to somehow confirm their belief that they have met their twin soul. There is no confirmation until the ultimate reunion with Divine Source, until then the greatest message I have received is, "Do not fear being "wrong."

In other words, if we are so determined to believe that this or that certain person is our twin, we tend to become blinded to the rest of the lessons in life. Life is about love in all forms, how can we truly grow without trusting in the wisdom of the Universe to bring to us those which will teach us best? Love is not about expectation, love is without condition, but relationships on this Earth are all about conditions. I would advise anyone who believes they have met their twin, yet is in such pain from that meeting, that perhaps the time for union is not right, or that they are enmeshed in a karmic soul mate or "near twin" relationship. Only in "letting go" can we be prepared to receive what is truly ours. There are some that believe the "reunion" with our twinflame is truly within, that we carry the essence of our beloved within our soul, and we are challenged to manifest that love in all we do, without attachment, without expectation, we become ONE.


Peace, love, and unity,
Maria Mango