MSN BLOG ACCESS

Copied from my - blog.myspace.com!!!!

You have to ask my permission now as,
HYPOTHETICALLY there are certain HYPOTHETICAL X-persons in my life
who take HYPOTHETICAL offense to things I have HYPOTHETICALLY written there.


NOT that I have used pics or last names, although HYPOTHETICALLY I could LOL LOL LOL....

FREEDOM of SPEECH LOL LOL LOL !!!!!!!!

Yup Block em and they can't WHINE about it,

Perhaps if you don't like what you see...
QUIT LOOKING HYPOTHETICAL BRAINIACS!!!!!

I love Thursdays, and YOU LOL LOL LOL ??????

The fan & the proverbial dung are FLYING now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING of course.!!!
But hey I know YOU guys I will allow you all permission,

YOU HAVE BEEN & ARE my TRUE FRIENDS.

SUX to be them LOL LOL LOL HYPOTHETICALLY!!!!!!
MUAH
As he HYPOTHETICALLY always said.

Jewelz
Just "BEE-ing REAL
LOL LOL LOL

BOOOYAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah baby, now we'll see who's crying now. Gotta love that song!!!!!!!!!!

Have you seen the new WEBSITE????????????

MAN do I rock!!!!!

I LOVE life, HYPOTHETICALLY speaking of course LOL LOL LOL LOL.

Cause you all know this is just ramblings LOL LOL LOL, I hear voices and they don't like you!

YOU know who YOU are HYPOTHETICALLY speaking of course.

Jewelz

HYPOTHETICALLY "BEE" ing NON - REAL or would that be NON - FAKE hmmmm

You tell me!

Happy Jeudi MONDE!!!!!

Offensive????????????

Perhaps people who take offense should have quit being so offensive. LOL LOL LOL

So the website is coming along well, considering I have never ever made one by myself before, well I used yahoo geocities once but now this is all new, thank goodness my TRUE friend has a son who knows tons about it and is available on a daily basis, gotta love MSN Messenger.

So it's his birthday today, hope he is enjoying it, snow eh????? Lindsay loves it!!!!

Ok another BLOG to deal with and a website to continue constructing!!!!!

Jewelz

Staying REAL!!!!!!

Yes!!!! Taken from my other blog too tired to be original

Finally ready for the preview
OK the site is up, but not yet finished.... YEEEEEEHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAA
www.lakesdistrict.ca/jewelz

Enjoy, and a wonderful thought taken from Monica's Blog on myspace.com
Whoda thunk?
Surrounded by supposed "real" friends in my old life, yet,
there in cyberspace, is where I find the "TRUE" ones!
Wow, the hurt the "Real" caused and the healing the "True" is doing.
I love TRUTH!!!!!!
Thanks "TRUE" friends
May you be surrounded with as much love & joy as you have shown/given me!
Jewelz
Be-ing, Still!!!!! LOL or is it Still "Be-ing" LOL??????!!!!!!

Sweet Dreamz!!!!!

AS WE JOURNEY
As we journey within ourselves
searching for the centre-point of stillness
we may discover it is a place
we can only approach empty-handed and alone;
but turning our backs to the world
we may find, to our endless joy,
the whole world waiting for us to arrive
and our empty hands
holding everything we need.
~Judith Pintar~

The weather outside is frightful

But for us, SO delightful, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!!!!

Snow angels, snow flakes on your tongue, nothing like the "dead" of winter to show you how dead you had become.
Lifeless, going through the motions, wishing for some sign of life. Wondering if your friends' and partners truly did love you to realize they were in it for themselves.
Aahhh well they will, can have theirs now.
The truth shall set them free.

One day they will wake up and face it.

I'M ALIVE. I like that song must download it.

Website just about there!!!!

Yeehhhaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Kiwani tomorrow!!! Phew it seemed like forever!!!!

Staying "REAL"

Jewelz

Snow????

Oh puhleez, when ya get 6 feet that stays and -24 then I can see the complaining, BC = Bizarre Coast weather changes on a minute by minute basis, hold on people, it'll melt just stay home for an hour, much safer. Just think of the boarding, skiing you can do now. Or the excuse not to go into work, look on the bright side.....?????
I am still trying to find one myself but it is not weather related.

Yeah ok whatever LOL LOL LOL

A bunch of SUV's with summer tires on them LOL LOL LOL.

Glad I am here!

When life gives you snow....
Make a snow angel

Jewelz

Staying "REAL"

Cheetah girls?????

It's over, must download. AYYYYYY, why can't I just get on with it??? How does one just turn it off??

How do you forget? Stuck in wonderment. Tormented by tears. Wishing I was anywhere but here, alone and hurt, you can only be hurt if you allow it, too late now, damage been done, just looking to find my sun.

Jewelz
Still BE-ing
REAL

Another Collected Poem

Feeling really crappy today, perhaps this will help.
Perhaps "it" will come to me soon...

The Law Of Life

Whatever you give away today

or think or say or do

will multiply about tenfold

and then return to you.

It may not come immediately

nor from the obvious source,

but the Law applies unfailingly

through some invisible force.

Whatever you feel about another,

be it love or hate or passion,

will surely bounce right back to you

in some clear or secret fashion.

If you speak about some person,

a word of praise or two

soon tens of other people

will speak kind words to you

Our thoughts are broadcasts of the soul,

not secrets of the brain.

Kind ones bring us happiness;

petty ones; untold pain.

Giving works as surely as

reflections in a mirror.

If hate you send, hate you'll get back...

But loving brings love nearer.

Remember, as you start this day,

and duty crowds your mind,

that kindness comes so quickly back

to those who first are kind!

Let that thought and this one

Direct you through each day...

The only things we ever keep

are the things we give away!

Jerry Buchanan

2nd Day

3 more rounds at the track and I still think I'm gonna die, could it be me oh me oh my, lol, happy hump day LOL, whatever for me, no work, time to reflect, change what I don't like and improve upon what I do!

Ciao y'all

Website with songs and pics still coming have to create stuff and I am new at it, muddling my way through, t'is fun sometimes frustrating but I will get there !

Jewelz

Staying Real

I know what to do and I do it !!!!!!!!

Dare To

Ask for what you want

Believe in yourself

Change your mind

Do what you love

Enjoy each and every day

Follow your hearts desire

Give more than you receive

Have a sense of humour

Insist on being yourself

Join in more

Kiss & make up - yeah ok whatever you need 2 willing to do so

Love & be loved - thought I was/did-thought quite WRONGLY apparently

Make new friends

Nurture your spirit

Overcome adversity

Play more

Question conformity

Reach for the stars

Speak your truth

Take personal responsibility

Understand more, judge less

Volunteer your time

Walk through fear

Yearn for grace

be Zany

Meiji Stewart

Thanks Meiji

Jewelz

Reaching for REAL-ity

ARRRGGGHHHHHH

Just deleted all my files, no regard for nothing. Perhaps I should do that to all his music files????
Well I guess that was apparent on Labour day and his lack of everything especially with Lindsay. But damn now I have to reorganize all the pics he has hidden here and there, as well as the renamed so I wouldn't realize what, where they were etc. There are doubles and ayyyyyeeeeee.
JAYZUS I am just trying to find pics for my new up & coming website.
And then my playlist always mucked with that, I guess he wanted me to be dependant upon him, but look at me go...
FTP site uploading.
EAZY PEEZY LEMON SQUEEZY, but now again, as per usual, MY playlist... half has been renamed or removed... FRICK me.
Oh well, it passes the time I spose.

Ayeee I had more thoughts and good feelings to spread.

BREATHE
Om nay pad me oom - LOL LOL

Believe it is possible to solve your problem.
Tremendous things will happen to the believer.
So believe the answer will come.
It will!!!!

Norman Vincent Peale

Reminds me of Lindsay's song - I Believe - Amanda Marshall

Damn Fernando & "Them" - The Queen's was mine!
Oh well the Legion around here has it some Friday nite's.
I missed this past one due to going to family fun night, free supper and crafts for parents and kids. AND the CRAPPY part was it was NOT a good turn out so I could have SANG ALL NITE!!!!!!

The things we do for our children!

And because of lying, uncaring deceivers.

Meh, their kharma, back to my "Yellow"

A file I printed from the shelters puter - written by?????

About some Tyler Hjorthoy - June 27th 2006

I'm watching you drown, I'm hearing your cry,
I'm grabbing your hand, but you won't even try.

You're drifting away, I'm losing my grip,
The thin tie that binds us is starting to rip.

There's weights on your feet, there's weights on your soul,
You're pulling me down but I can't let go.

You won't let me save you, you tell me don't try,
But I'm apart of you too, and I won' t let us die.

If you wanted to sink, if you wanted to drown,
Then why is it you're kicking and splashing around?

Am I wasting my time, am I wasting my fear,
am I so close to something that will never be near?

As soon as I feel you, and think that it's fine,
You splash me with sand making me blind.

I tell myself you'll make it, I tell myself you'll fly,
I tell myself I'll be the one to help you get by.

But as you push away my hand I know it's all a lie.


HOLY MAN!!!! C'est franchment trippant!!!!!

More Thinks - LOL

When the soul wishes to experience something,
she throws an image of the experience out before her
and enters into her own image.

Meister Eckart


Only when he no longer knows what he is doing
does the painter do good things.

Edgar Degas


Imagination is more important than knowledge.

Albert Einstein

Blogs Updated again/still

http://jewelzisthegem.spaces.live.com

http://blog.myspace.com/123529378

Sundays...

RISK
The greater the adversity, the brighter the light of opportunity.

Geez I am in for a blinding light then LOL!!!!

Success
It is by taking chances that we suceed.

I am definately gonna be sucessful then!!!!

Victory
You can't control the winds.
The race can only be won if you have ability to adjust your sails.

NO SHEIZEIT SHERLOCK, I got that one thanks Marc & Tanya, on labour day at 1:57 AM!!! JIB JIB JIB, MAYDAY!

Persevearance
There is no substitute for hard work.

I always did, but they chose them over me, so be it!

Contentment
Just think how happy you'd be if you lost everything you had now,
and then, got it back.

Well, lost it all, and only got some back, but I guess I got only all that TRUly mattered (pun intended) back.

(Another) Persevearance

Any dream worth having, is worth fighting for.

Too bad I was the only one fighting for it.

Ok kiddos Happy Sunday!!!!!

Jewelz
REAL-ly Being

Time

Tick, tick, tick. I wish to be done with the pain. Ahh yes the bright side finding out after only 4 years instead of 24 what an asshole he is/was, but I would rather have not had to personally, I was quite content, OBVIOUSLY he wasn't. Wishing one's life away is a dangerous thing, must be proactive, it is just some days I wake up going WHY F-ING ME??????? The tears flow like the rain you all had, perhaps somehow related... My universe and spirit is one stormy, blah weather front. Ahhh winter, the time of death, patience for Spring and rebirth, I want to be a BEAR, hibernate until Spring, but alas the 2 leg and 4 leg need my strength, where do I find it???? I ask myself on a minute by minute basis, when I don't waste my time fretting about why, and where's my stuff, when and if HE will ever allow me to have it or if he is going to do right by the 2 leg? Their actions caused my venom but meh, they don't care why should I? Perhaps because I believed their words to be true. Because a decent and moral person would never do what they did, and I loved them with EVERY ounce of being, soul and spirit that I had. Now I have emptiness, not just from a partner but a supposed best friend and your bosses, so all my foundations GONE. Home, job, best friend, partner. POOF. Happy Labour day, welcome to your new life. What the hell was wrong with the old one???? I was handling it, working through the weird stuff, figured as long as one cared and was honest, and willing to work at it, HAH

I FIGURED SO WRONG!!!!!!

DUH, as Journey or was it Foreigner says whose crying now????? Certainly not them.

Well next time (if I can ever get over this time) it will be filled with truth, honesty, respect, compassion and people who will abide by boundaries that are NEVER to be crossed and will be honored NOT ridiculed or tested and pushed until they leave you no option other than the cliff or Venom.

OUCH, OWIE, AHHHHHH, AYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Where's the healing potion when you so desperately need one????

Jewelz - Still staying REAL!

Yet another thought

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.-Dr. Seuss

I LOVE DR. SEUSS - If only I could heed his words!!!!!

Where did all the "Good" men go???????

Jewelz
Still reeling in a sideways 8 of hurt and self analyzation

Being REAL - MSN Blog and My space Blog updated too!

It just got alot better

Can you believe it, moi, added to my "Captain's" friend list on myspace.com one of my other blogs! see somewhere on my profile for all my blogs.

Thank you universe for bringing sunshine to my stormy world.

Jewelz smiling now - PLIKA PLIKA - PATRICK MALIHA RULES!!!!!!!

Staying Real!!!

Humour - Taken from Carmen Jaye's Comment on Patrick's site

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103664177 -

Above is where you can find Carmen Jaye's Blog Site
But I corrected the typo's in the joke, I'm just anal that way LOL.

A chicken and an egg laying in a bed.
The chicken takes a puff from his cigarette,
turns to the egg and says....
"Well... I guess we answered THAT question!"

Cool Thought

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. - Unknown

I had plans, dreams, actions and beliefs - apparently not the same as Marc's.
Too bad he hadn't figured it out sooner and saved me a ton of pain, but alas he is happy rather "deliriously happy", I guess that is all that matters in his world.
Too bad he never considered Lindsay and I in his "plan".

My New Doo

Midori's Reply

After many years I heard from her and have the correct version of the poem...

Mid, please write me again, I would love to reconnect, did you get my message from your babysitting days?????

So there I was, quietly reading "The Sea Wolf" while across the room Thierry - my husband - was surfing the net, when suddenly he starts reciting "Maybe one day you will realize that the minutes and hours..." Needless to say, it grabs my attention! So I pick up and finish it from memory, and am totally mystified as to where he found it, and excited about discovering who wrote it (it wasn't me, it was written in a yearbook back when I was a teenager - I thought it was awesome at the time that the author didn't sign it...) Turns out he'd searched for my name and your site came up.... Anyway, here's the whole poem, from MY memory back to YOURS...

The correct version of this great poem...

Maybe one day you will realize
That the minutes and hours now going by
will never go by again
Then perhaps you will realize
that in the precious life of yours
you must do what you love and want most
You must say what you feel
and make the most of all great things
But even if you do see all this
and even if you have a goal or a dream
you may never reach it
Because it is a very hard thing to do
Around so many people who do not realise or understand
Life
It is very hard --
I know--
A Friend

And it is still "REAL" Thanks Dori!!!! Please write me again, or reply to my emails.