Time

Tick, tick, tick. I wish to be done with the pain. Ahh yes the bright side finding out after only 4 years instead of 24 what an asshole he is/was, but I would rather have not had to personally, I was quite content, OBVIOUSLY he wasn't. Wishing one's life away is a dangerous thing, must be proactive, it is just some days I wake up going WHY F-ING ME??????? The tears flow like the rain you all had, perhaps somehow related... My universe and spirit is one stormy, blah weather front. Ahhh winter, the time of death, patience for Spring and rebirth, I want to be a BEAR, hibernate until Spring, but alas the 2 leg and 4 leg need my strength, where do I find it???? I ask myself on a minute by minute basis, when I don't waste my time fretting about why, and where's my stuff, when and if HE will ever allow me to have it or if he is going to do right by the 2 leg? Their actions caused my venom but meh, they don't care why should I? Perhaps because I believed their words to be true. Because a decent and moral person would never do what they did, and I loved them with EVERY ounce of being, soul and spirit that I had. Now I have emptiness, not just from a partner but a supposed best friend and your bosses, so all my foundations GONE. Home, job, best friend, partner. POOF. Happy Labour day, welcome to your new life. What the hell was wrong with the old one???? I was handling it, working through the weird stuff, figured as long as one cared and was honest, and willing to work at it, HAH

I FIGURED SO WRONG!!!!!!

DUH, as Journey or was it Foreigner says whose crying now????? Certainly not them.

Well next time (if I can ever get over this time) it will be filled with truth, honesty, respect, compassion and people who will abide by boundaries that are NEVER to be crossed and will be honored NOT ridiculed or tested and pushed until they leave you no option other than the cliff or Venom.

OUCH, OWIE, AHHHHHH, AYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Where's the healing potion when you so desperately need one????

Jewelz - Still staying REAL!